Expressions

What are the rules? I often wonder because I know I don’t know the rules. It seems everyone plays by a different set of rules. I know they are different from mine. Others seem to expect me to know their rules. I never expect others to know mine. Do I have any? Do they...

The last two weeks have been particularly stressful, probably more than I realize.  I’m one that makes a point not to be a burden, not to offend or distress or bother anyone ever … if I can help it. That’s totally from childhood trauma conditioning. I default to...

I count the petals on the flower. Sitting on my favorite boulder by the lake, I watch clumps of cotton ball clouds drifting across the sky. Birds chatter in the distance, though occasionally one swoops close by. I like the sound of the wind swishing the tall grass...

I wanted to be in our writing group this afternoon, as I do every Sunday, even though writing has felt distant to me.  It’s often easier for me to write “off the cuff” as I do during our time together (compared to being more deliberate with my larger writing...

They call me sassy. It's a name that fits. I can be something of a smart ass when I'm in the mood to be. All I need is an excuse to pop off with some witty retort. But then, that's not the whole of me. I get to be chill sometimes. But that's where there's a problem....

I’m Randall. Some might call me a protector, but in fact I’m more of a logistics professional, historian … and when occasion requires, a traffic director. Knowing what I know about this system, it’s my job to ensure things run smoothly – as smoothly as possible. It...

Someday, hopefully in the near future, I’ll be able to honestly say that it was nice to be with all of them—with everyone in my system.  It’s partially true now.  I enjoy time with aspects of myself, it’s just that usually I’m only with a few at a...

It’s challenging to return to being present when someone else has been managing daily life.  Depending on how things go, it can feel like I am just continuing where I left off before vanishing.  That’s not always the case though, and I’ve become...